Its been a long, nice, fun, and even to some extent a happining phase for me over the last 10 years or so, since i first left home, and this time changed the scared.. innocent unexposed kid, into the unfortunate thing that i have become..
unfortunate - for sometimes, i search deep inside me, to feel the huge resevior of, humanity, love, and empathy i had, the stuff which used to quietly seep out of my eyes every time i saw suffering be it in a movie or just around me. but off late, like all the reserviors supplying water to our teeming cities, this too seems to be drying up.
I have asked myself several times where has all the emotions gone? am i finally becoming my worse nightmare, an unfeeling, unconcerned, unrelatable person.... one who has hurt, several wonderful people, did i make these people pay the price for my emotional state?
I ask myself, what have i done to myself, where did i go wrong, when did i fail myself....
For now, i only hope, that its only a phase i am going thru, one that will pass, leaving me a better person, having seen this dark patch....
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